Mattchu's Mind

Sunday, February 8, 2004

21:21 - friends only

i am worried about people taking things the wrong way, so i'm going to change my account to a 'friends only' account. you can still all see me entries if you wish. just ask me to add you to my friends list in a comment on this entry. lots of love mattchu x

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Wednesday, February 4, 2004

15:40 - welcome note

hello sorry that i have not added you soner but i have not lernt LJ yet...

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Tuesday, February 3, 2004

19:48 - o god....

how dose it happen...? that i have to get the shittyist things at the moment... i look at people and see tha they are depreesed and i try to keep happy and right now i one of those people...

7 days to go out of 40 days of free weed days and i am thinking about getting stoned like moo dose and forget the problems... adrian moved out today and there are things that i wish to find out are true and i think they are, this would change my opieon about him forever...

i need to do somethink or i will go mad...
there was somethink i wish i said to you and i already know the anwser, moo...
kev i do have to break the deal about your brithday i do not feel that i can do it...

"........."

there is so much i with to type but i can not, no body knows me... i wish for that i was happy...

*crys*

good bye

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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

19:56 - feeling

i feel happy ant the world is white dose that mean it has been snowing coke...?

i have a feeling that i am going, yes, have a party...

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Thursday, January 22, 2004

16:16 - ...?

i get the feeling that there in no place to go... that every one is around... that i can not escape...

i have a small escape and that is moo, i can go to her and have some time alone... there is a cloud of stress over me and this dose no help when people are trying to get and keep my atentin... i need releace from this feeling...

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Thursday, January 15, 2004

20:11 - all is well

today was odd but well ass i spent time looking on the net i looked for a odd cartoon called "dogsbody" of "dogs in space"... i went to see my mum after looking after lotty who has been ill for the past cupple of days... i read the journal of moo's enterys and noticed that she has mentioned that i have to her that she is an addict... i need to help her in some way... and in tha other news to day i had a lot of old reminders that was good and bad but they are all ok...

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Friday, January 9, 2004

11:01 - sat at a computer

my mind is odd last year as i stod at the end of the bed were my gran lay i whatch as my gran toke her last breath and then... if i look back i see that the past is full of badness and pain...i remember going back to the hallway and giving the news to my sis linsey about my gran and that next to her stood, "........", her, keeley carter... she made me feel better and safe even in the face of death and i need that naw...

lotty is getting better in the hole possesive thing and that dose show me hope but she can not give me the safe eeling that keeley gave me... i worry about moo and adie aswell and i need to fix the flat and i need help but i know that my stuben brain will not let me exsept help... and the secret o matt is spild by kev as he says that two-faced thing... if lotty reads that i am going to have a hard time and will get citaged at...

so meany things to compleat and so meany things to to be done in so little time...

Oki please wake up and save me save me... please... _,'_, z Z

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02:36 - Life

This is my first entry...!!!
Why do people have to die...? Were is my Gran...? And is there a Heaven or Hell...? I question this because of the day of my Gran's death... (09-01-03)
There is one thing that is going good for me and that is being truthful and kev yeah me for that...!

all have fun as i say good bye... *wave with chop sticks in hand*

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